Today has sucked. And I really don't have that many days. So i'm going to be one of those typical teenagers and spill my guts out on my xanga for the whole world to read.

I realized i'm not as happy as I used to be. Something has made me a lil more aware of how much I need "that guy" that completely takes my damn breath away. Ricky used to be him but not so much anymore. Not a freaking day goes by without us fighting about some sort of useless issue. You watch these stupid "love" movies and see how FAKE happy they are and think to yourself "It's just a movie, that never happens". But you can't help but wish for it. And I guess I'm setting my expectations way too high. It's left me irritable and very moody, yet I can't seem to make myself look past all of it. And that pretty much sucks.

Anyways, before I go deeper, i'll just S-t-O-p

Today was cooly. Worked extra hours but I'm thinking about getting another job. I need more money. YES i'm a greedy bastard! But yea, some negro asses came by and took about half the day ordering which just PISSED me off because they threw in a lot of "uhhhhhhhh" and "let me getttttttttt" UGH stupid mother effer's. Then when they came to my window to get their food I was like "the sauce is in the bag" and slammed the window shut. Then I saw their mouths moving knowing they were cussing out my window. I couldn't help but laugh.

And for any "African American" that got offended by my use of words, please get over it. Seriously, people let things get to them TOO damn easily. It's just a freaggin word. Don't cry about it please?! I went out with Ricky for more than a year, I think it's clear i'm not "racist" or have anything against this "all-powerful black culture". I just absolutely despise the occasional retard who claims the world as their own thinking they rule it. OK?! ok.

As you can see i'm a little hmm... aggrivated? yea that's the word.

Natalia will return tomorrow.

[edit]

Tonight was great! Totally turned around. Me and SoSo are AWESOME. "Oh she's asleep" LMAO love my girlie

*Great Day* I woke up at 9 and went to Six Flags. The first one I rode was *drum roll* MR. FREEZE! Despite my oath to never ride that beastly thing! Goodness it was the scariest thing ever. But of course, I closed my eyes the whole way and prayed for it to be over. GEEZ was it "mind-blowing" Anyways, I went with my sister and Justin Rogers. You band nerds may remember him. He looks SO different now. I left at like 4 because I have to go to work at 5. SAD but whatever. Work was fun because we had the radio on, which made us a lil crazy. Everyone thought I was drunk and Blas kept picking on me (shakes fist) All in all, great day! Now i'm outtie, pics below! 

I couldn't focus on the camera! Boutz to ride Batman.

Look at the people behind us riding Batman! AWESOME?!

Justin and Sof about to ride Superman

LMAO! Justin's creation. Poor puppets. Inappropriate but I had to share.

Well you're about to see just how bored I am.

88 Wonderful Facts about ME

1) I'm a photo-taking furreak!
2) I can't buy enough pink purses
3) I hate the fact that I don't like attending church
4) I'm a work-aholic
5) Until about the 8th grade, I wished I had bigger boobs
6) Now i'm not so shallow and I don't care!
7) When I try my best, I'm usually pretty kick ass
8) You probably won't find someone who will sincerely keep you "serious" secrets
9) I failed Geometry & World History
10) I could listen to love songs all day
11) I was born in Queens, New York
12) My whole family was born in Peru
13) When I went to Hawaii, I got homesick
14) I've never asked a guy out, and probably never will
15) I can't stand Beyonce's voice
16) I used to think the Irving Mall was the shiz nit
17) I once drove against traffic because I couldn't see the road
18) I don't know how to do laundry
19) I fart just like everybody else
20) I'm not embarrased about my last fact
21) I'm so freaking terrified of dying
22) I only know one truly gay guy and he's awesome
23) When my senior year starts, i'll be 17 and 15 days old
24) I think I have a manly voice
25) When people meet me, they usually think i'm Indian
26) I thought Mandy Moore made a great decision when she turned brunette
27) I buy DVD's because they're cool looking
28) I wish I was rich
29) I don't think i'll ever figure out my "passion in life"
30) I'm terrified of failure
31) I worry too much about other people having a good time while they're with me
32) I cannot sing but that doesn't stop me from trying
33) I know most of the lines in "Titanic"
34) I've been working for 5 months and all my money has gone to clothes and food, there are no savings
35) No matter what anyone says, smoking weed makes you a loser
36) I will never give in to peer pressure
37) My feet are huge!
38) This black gay guy just recently cut my hair too short, now I want to shoot him in the eye
39) I like making people jealous who deserve it
40) I hate playing the clarinet
41) I have a very bad temper
42) I get irritated easily
43) I think reggeaton is annoying, no one should rap in spanish
44) I have music phases.
45) I cried once because I killed an ant
46) I think it's too big of a trouble to shave my legs. But don't worry, I still do it
47) An online pervert wanted to meet me, so I gave him the address across the street and watched the moron look for me
48) Last year, I didn't get my period for a whopping 6 months!
49) If I could change my name, i'd probably be Andrea
50) I desparetly want to be a bridesmaid
51) I wish I was a vegetarian
52) I have a Pikachu alarm clock
53) When I wrote my last fact, it took me 2 minutes to remember that the show was called "Pokemon"
54) I love being tall and skinny
55) I used to think only sluts shopped at Victoria Secret
56) I was stalked in 6th grade
57) I'm seriously running out of facts
58) I wasn't joking when I said I was running out of facts so I'm going to stop here!
59) You will never know how much I REALLY eat
60) I won't ever eat anything that can swim

more later lol too tired to think

I finally fixed my computer! *snaps for natalia*

Summer is almost over. I think i'm giving up on the Captain thing considering the fact that I have zero time to think up a routine. Oh well. I went to Hurricane Harbor on Thursday which was A-okay! SO relaxing =] I was too chicken to ride most of the rides, but I actually went on Tornado. It took a lot of persuasion though, because I was positive I would fly off the side. And this Monday I shall be going to Six Flags. B-l-a-s-t!

I find myself always wanting to go to Walgreens and buy worthless stuff. No wonder I have no savings

Anybody know where I can buy a cheap A car?! I need one pronto. Otherwise I'll just look for a mexican to "fix up" a car (ahem, steal)

The plans for the Bahamas are sadly not going to happen. I can't miss any more days of work, and band starts soon. Which totally blows! So maybe i'll pack my hollister shorts and hit California *crosses fingers*

Which reminds me, Hollister Co. must be swimming in money due to all of my paychecks they've received. I must have spent about 1 grand over there already. Bastards!

Anyways, enough crap. Pieces

Lyrics of the day

- Mandy Moore - Cry

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was.... changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

It's official. This is the first time i've written this summer. Kind of hard when you don't have your precious laptop, ya know?

Anyways, my time-away-from-school has been great, to say the least. I've spent about 70% at work, 15% shopping, 10% sitting on my a**, and 5% chillaxing with my peeps. It's super to be out of school though!

Flag Camp starts soon. *gag* I haven't even starting thinking of my try-out routine. Chippy *my puppy* just got neutered. That's when they cut off a man's testicles. I'm sorry if reading that sent any of you into painful shock, but yea I'm just tired of him humping my leg.

Any-hoot, i'm off. No more time.! <3 me